my boobs are getting bigger by the day. every morning ry and i just kind of look at them and marvel. maybe thats too much information but thats just how we do. pregnancy is a strange, interesting thing. :)

i watched a show on conception the other day on discovery health. it almost brought me to tears. im completely amazed at how God designed our bodies... how he designed conception. though they were spending the entire show explaining how it works, at the end i was more mystified and amazed than ever. its more than a sperm and an egg. its more than science. its more than "have sex, get pregnant". society has watered down this miracle more than i realized. i didnt realize what an absolute wonder it is that ryan and i conceived shiloh. ugh, God forgive me... she's a miracle. she more than just "happened". she's more than a missed day of birth control. after really seeing conception take place im more convinced than ever that God is present inside those wombs, making sure that his dream comes to fruition.

i mailed three red envelopes to the White House yesterday, each one representing one life taken. there's many situations circling around "why" each abortion takes place but regardless, those three lives are mourned in my heart.
if i hadn't chosen to carry joshua he would be just one of those envelopes... his precious life reduced to a red piece of paper. God help us.