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 joshys sitting next to me having cinnamon oatmeal with minced apples and chompin' down on his organic "smiley snacks". he's covered in food and so beautiful. :)
the routine is the same every morning... baby wakes up shouting DA-DA until someone comes to rescue him. :) usually its me, since ryan is amazing and gets up with him in the middle of the night when he needs a bottle. i'll drag his high chair into the kitchen and toss some cheerios on this tray while i make coffee. he looks up at me with those gorgeous, sleepy eyes and i melt every time. 

i dont know what i did to deserve this angel. he's absolutely precious.
i see things through a childs perspective now. i have belly-aching laughs rolling around on the floor with him. i stop and show him every flower, all the bright colors and shapes. we take loooong walks and i think about what the pretty breeze must feel like on his face. we go to parks and he swings on my lap. we swim and laugh and we HAVE to slow down... its good.

my life has changed DRASTICALLY over the past year but i feel ive handled it with grace. i couldnt have possibly done it without the grace first given to me. i dont know how women do. im grateful for every second of this life i fell into... ridiculously in love and completely fulfilled in my marriage, something i didnt think was ever possible with this person. a mommy to the best baby in the world.

and 19 days until our 10 day vacation!!!!!!!! :D

well the weather was yucky today but our day went well. :) kinda... of course i was convicted of a failure to yield the right of way. $97... im not even kidding. what i dont understand is how he could convict me when the driver of the other car didnt show. the judge even said that green arrows usually comes before solid green lights. he agreed with me, the other party didnt come to court and i was STILL convicted. he was a mean old man.

i came home and we did absolutely nothing for two hours... just hung out and such. eventually the three of us took showers and went to walmart. ryans doing the southbeach diet for two weeks (phase one) before florida so we had to buy a ton of meat and veggies for that. ive read the book and its a heck of a lot healthier than atkins. i also bought this black cherry streusal creamer that i cannot WAIT to try. anyway, we finally have milk in the house so i had a bowl of cereal and an apple turnover for dinner. i swear i could LIVE off of carbs. i love them. 

joshua refused to nap ALL day so he's totally exhausted and wound up (wierd combo but understood once you have children) and he just keeps waking up with bouts of tears. ive rocked him a ton and offered him a bazillion bottles... i finally got him to calm down and i THINK he might be sleeping. *shhhh*

the bachelor finale is tonight but i may have to go to patient first... i have a sore throat and swollen lymph nodes under my jaw and its really painful. :/ i just haaaaate going to doctor and either one, getting sent home and having wasted so much time or two, getting prescribed freaking antibiotics which always screw up my birth control which i JUST got under control (new pill, new cycle, etc),. i really dont want to deal with that and have to worry about pregnancy for another 28 days. 

i dont think anybody worries about their birth control as much as i do. they take their pill, theyre fine. i used to be the same way for a long time. but after i had joshua my body wacked out and didnt do well with anything... it would screw up my cycle, id talk to the doctor and shed be like "ah! you could be pregnant! get off the pill and we'll try something new next month". i FINALLY got that under control, though, so forget patient first. pass me the coffee and i cannot WAIT to see who he choosessss. haha  

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i  had such a wonderful mothers day! Ryan wrote me the sweetest card and gave me the most precious gift ever. I was really, really blessed by him this year. :)
after church we went to my brothers house to give my mom her gifts and indulge in the most AMAZING seafood dinner i have ever seen. shrimp, crab, fish (yuck to that, however), corn, boiled potatoes, onions, acorn squash, grilled cabbage... ah, the list goes on. we had coffee and german chocolate fudge brownies for dessert, hung out for a while with the family and came home. :) joshua went to bed MAD early... 6ish?? i know he'll be up at like, 5:30 in the morning and thats gonna suck, but ry and i had a really nice evening together. we've been watching out shows and playing mario intermittenly. 
i have court in the morning for my accident.

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and so that is my defense. 

blah.

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